IT WOULDN'T BE ENOUGH

june 16, 2010, this is the song of my heart

If I had all the riches this world had to give
All the comfort that it brings
Never needing anything
I could search the whole earth over far and wide
Trying to find this precious love
That was sent down from above

And it wouldn't be enough
No it wouldn't be enough
To by one splinter on the tree Jesus died on
And I couldn't pay the price
For one single drop of blood
That was shed for my salvation

If I had all the riches this world had to give
And I gave it all away
Not a penny to my name
To some beggar on life dark and lonely street
All this kindness found in me
Could not win eternity

And it wouldn't be enough
No it wouldn't be enough
To by one splinter on the tree Jesus died on
And I couldn't pay the price
For one single drop of blood
That was shed for my salvation

RESOLVING THE CRISIS

before i went to sleep last night, i sent a message to my sister telling her my state of unhappiness. this morning, she asked me why do i think i'm not happy? have i lost my joy? she reminded me that as a child of God, there would be unhappy times but deep inside, we can still find peace and joy. she asked about my quiet time, which has been unintentionally removed from my schedule. my sister also reminded me of certain struggles in life, and that though we think we have everything, we could never be truly happy here on earth. i know this is true because if we are so contented or fully satisfied here on earth, then we wouldn't yearn for heaven anymore. i was also reminded that satan may be playing with my emotions. as advised by king solomon, we should guard our hearts because it is deceitful.

to resolve the crisis, go back to the basics. quiet time. guard my heart. be still and trust God.

EMOTIONAL CRISIS

it's a brand new day, and i'm thankful for that. though i must admit there were times when i really don't want to wake up... anymore. (Lord, please don't take me yet... i'm still dealing with this emotional crisis. i hate it!)
yes, being a full-time mom is very fulfilling but can be quite overwhelming too. last night, i fell asleep with a heavy heart. i have realized i am now in a phase (well i hope this is just a phase) where nobody wants to be in. i have everything this world could give, but i am not happy.