THE HEART OF A MOTHER

me, mom, sis

"the heart of a mother is a deep abyss at the bottom of which you always find forgiveness." - Honore De Balzac

i would consider myself as the black sheep of the family since i only have one sibling and because i think highly of my sister. well, i have never given any migraine-causing problem to my parents. the worst, alarming problems that i could think of are the times when my high school teacher wrote in my card that i have inferiority complex (really?! what was she thinking?), when i was spending more time at church than at home (i somehow regret this because i should've spent more time with my dad...i know God would understand), and when i crashed Mc onto a truck and the fender was scraped off (geez..really my fault, i was such a bad driver. but the money for repair came from my own pocket). 

anyway, my mother would always tell people that i'm such a daddy's girl. this, plus my attitude, probably contributed much on how i respond and treat my mother. whenever she says something, i always find something wrong with it. when i'm in a different mood, i would just keep quiet and act as if i'm not listening... (very childish of me). there are more examples of how rude i am to her but i'm too lazy to write them here. you may conclude that i am her real life antagonist. 

But despite my attitude towards her, i just know she still loves me... so much. i don't tell her "i'm sorry" every time i hurt her. i just know i am forgiven without a word. so now, i want to treat her more lovingly. change my attitude towards her. be more patient. you know, before it's too late. we could never tell when our mortality will be upon us.

although she's never a perfect mother (and i was never a perfect daughter, her perfect kontrabida possibly!), i could say she did everything for us and gave all that she could as she and my dad raised us. she's generous and forgiving. she has a funny and sometimes annoying sense of humor. 

i love her and i'm so sorry for all the pain i've caused her. and i hope to bring more happiness into her life from now on. :)